A Thinker's drifty mind

a feeling washed over him..overwhelming him as it consumed his mind and heart slowly but cruelly..leaving no trace of remnant of logic in him behind. the feeling was clear, yet sophisticated. it was fundamental, yet complicated. he knew what he was experiencing..what he felt now was exactly what he felt some time back. he reminiscenced the past. nostalgic he was. it was not easy to put it in words. he knew what was coming along. then, revelation arrived as reality sets in: inferiority does it. the truth was simple and clear, as it literally shouts back at him...deafening the silence in his own blanketed world. inferiority was self-explanatory. self-inferiority in fact, to be more accurate. sadness enveloped him; his mind started to collapse as he grappled to logic how unfair his life was. but, the truth was the truth, no amount of reasoning can alter that. he was depressed and confused. he didn't know what to think...how to carry himself and how to show himself. his train of thoughts came to a halt when giving up popped into his mind. yes, that was the solution to his agony. but what exactly was he agony he couldn't tell. giving up seemed to provide asylum to his tortured mind and heart. yet, he was strong-willed and lion-hearted. he refused to bulge given the temptation to alleviate his misery. but alas, he made his decision...inferiority does it. give up. put a front. yes, this was it he thought. yet, he continued to wallow in a shell of internality, with distraction the only cause for him in forgetting what he was going through. only then can he derive satisfaction, of escaping reality... ...
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hey guys, oh man...tomorrow's the last day of school. and we'll be getting back our results slip. but that's not the point. the point is the chinese As is approaching! how's revision for you guys coming along? played 'cai quan' with anthony, darren and sinwei on the mrt just now. lolx..sinwei's actions are slow..and he caused anthony to win so many times. we suggested playing 'cai quan' during breaks, with drinks or something else as stakes. it'll be much more fun i bet..lolx! anyway, there isn't much activity here online as most people are offline either sleeping or mugging. and maybe frank is still busy burning incense paper. hope he does have enough rest for his grandma's funeral tomorrow. just edited my op speech for like the upteenth time! hope tomorrow's op rehearsal does go well for everyone! okie..gtg...keep this blog alive!! Hypocritical concludes today.

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signing off,
-val